“My Lost Star”

Sitting, alone, under the dark sky of the darkest night of my life; recalling my past, full of undesirable surprises, emotional drama’s, breaking of hope, becoming a prey of time, and drying of fountain of tears; “Oh my dear God if you really got existence then just tell me, why me? If don’t want to tell me this then tell me, am I only your favorite? If not then who else is he, so that I may go and hug him, Oh how sad he will be.”

Yes, they were all around me throughout my time. But they were, at times too sympathetic, and different from me; they could easily get themselves adjusted to the changing conditions, oh I was so jealous of them that thought it better to part my ways from them, so, that I may survive the remaining time. Oh my dear God just tell me what made them they and what made me, ME?

Yeah, I to got a piece of heart like them; quarter broken, quarter black, quarter white and quarter searching for something which I really don’t know! I to got a brain like them but not work like theirs, they are intelligent, sensible which I’m not!

Oh my dear God, why is it so? Why I’m so confuse? Why I’m not acceptable to them? Yeah, I got which they got. But still my reality is different and bitter. Their nights bring sleep and dreams; mine are sleepless with no stars in the sky.

I hugged her as well as her to but the fire is still in its full heat, burning me from inside. Why is it so, I really don’t know! What it is, please tell me. My tear falls on the ground leaving no impact on it, so no one notice it. Had they ever cried like this? If no, then why?

They are apparently weak and I’m strong but in reality they stand firm in the storm while it takes me away; hitting me with rocks and sand, ah my dear God, it hurts a lot, can you hear my cry, if yes then tell me why I’m I and they are they?

What? No this can’t be the reason because he to don’t have her by his side today! Yes I know he was 24 when lost her while I was just 10 when they buried her deep inside the earth.

So what if I can’t recall her, her love and affection for me, her dreams and plans for me as I was just ten at that time and lived my entire life without her, ate food, studied hard and got twenty four. No no her early departure can’t be the argument. Yes I know he learned everything from her, as she was with him till his twenty fourth birthday and left him when he was ready for competing with them; but I to have my father, if not her, to teach me. So this can’t be the answer! Please tell me.

Yes his life is far better and smooth then mine, because I lost her at ten when we need her the most? But I’m even unable to imagine her, her way of feeding my emptiness with her love, which she was supposed to. Then how can I presume her absence to be the reason behind my dark nights under a dark sky with no stars on it?

If you insist then let me say that yes its she whose absence I feel the most, whenever they spank me , whenever i want to hug someone to cool down the fire inside me which is constantly burning me, whenever I try to love someone. So let me say that I miss her a lot beside the fact that I never got use to her and I shall never be able to recall her even not a tiny glimpse of her. And she is the only difference between me and them, they are they because they got her and I’m me because I don’t have her!

Hey I know you are somewhere there in this dark sky and looking at me. No don’t cry, you aren’t supposed to be feeling guilty because I know you were as helpless at that time as you are now. I can’t feel the pain which you are feeling at this moment because I can never give birth to someone, can never understand someone who don’t know how to express, can never feel the pain of others which you constantly felt helplessly of mine, Because it’s mothers job. I promise you that I will never fall and cry if you shine for me every night.

“Mother is an institute from which flows the spring of love and success. No other person can be your mother, how so ever that person is kind. So take great care of your mothers”

"I can say what you like to hear but sorry i will think what i'm suppose to be thinking "

sls

“A conspiracy theory; End of colonialism and the       division of India.”

“World News, Sunday 16^th of March, 2015;

India, the country stretching from Quetta in the west to Chittagong in the east and from Gilgit in the north to Cochin in the South, has threatened USA and its Western allies of economic sanctions if it didn’t stopped illegal intervention in the internal affairs of the middle eastern countries.

The Indian prime minister, Summit Patel, had directed the chief of army staff, General Muhammad Suleman, to move the Indian army battalions to Sinkiang province of China, its regional and global ally, which borders USSR as per the provisions of joint defense pact signed between India and China in 1950.”

“Times India, Sunday 16^th of March, 2015;

The chief minister of Khyber Pakhtunkhwa province, Zia Ullah of the congress party, in an unexpected stopover at the Delhi airport, met his counterpart of Delhi province. Although PS to CM KP denied the information but our sources have reported that an understanding has been reached between the two leaders regarding the upcoming general elections.

The secretary for tourism ministry has issued a public notice which explains the reason behind the problem tourists are facing in the Kashmir valley. It has been stated that, as the world leader’s conference is underway in Srinagar and Muzzafarabad so the normal routine stood disturbed.”

Such would have been the course of affairs if the lust of west for world domination have come to an end, and the policy of divide and rule was understood by Indians, with the end of colonialism after the World War 2. But, unfortunately, they were and they are more intelligent as compare to us (who eat and drinks emotions). They are always having ten contingency plans for emotional fools like us and mostly we get trapped, if not in the first one then, in the second such plan!

The historical phenomenon of colonization is one that stretches around the globe and across time, including such disparate peoples as the Hittites, the Incas and the British. Modern state global colonialism, or imperialism, began in the 15th century with the "Age of Discovery", led by Portuguese and Spanish exploration of the Americas, and the coasts of Africa, the Middle East, India, and East Asia. It was the policy of self-proclaimed superior civilizations about dominating and conquering other, presumed, inferior civilizations by making them their slaves and exploiting their natural resources for their own benefits.

Today, they speak of peace and humanity but are busy in arm race. There is a theory that World War 3 will be fought for the sake of DRINKING WATER (sweet water)! Which total reserves are three percent of the world water; out of which seventy five percent is in the form of glaciers.

Looking at the World map one can say, without any hesitation, that the region which comprises of Pakistan and India is the economic and strategic center of world, And got everything which is required by a state to become a World power. If not as a single united state, this region got the potential to dominate the world.

Two questions needs to be sought out

1. What did actually the famous Two Nations Theory envisioned, and what is the outcome?

2. What India and Pakistan should do now?

“What did actually the famous Two Nations Theory envisioned, and what is the outcome”

For a period of almost thousand years, sub-continent was ruled by different rulers, who were Muslim by faith but there subjects were mostly Hindus. Each ruler ruled according to his own way but none is known for his aggressive attitude towards any of his subjects, whether they were Muslim or Hindus. (There are few exceptional realities to this conviction of mine but with ambiguities).

The race for making colonies and looting their assets introduced sub-continent to the East India Company which was not less than a nightmare. As it’s a matter of fact now that EIC came to India, not with intention of doing business but, for making it a colony of the British Empire(So what got the Great Britain to say about their this fraud?) for which they indulged themselves in various conspiracies against the Mughals with the complicities of both Muslims and Hindus (traitors?). After a lot of hard work, finally, in the year 1857 the last Mughal was dethroned and, in the year 1958, British took formally India into its control through Queen Proclamation.

For getting firm grip on the natives they, the British masters, divided them on religious grounds(divisions and sub divisions is like a fuel for politics, if there are no as such divisions the politicians creates them). They played both Muslim and Hindus just for the sake of increasing hate in their hearts for each other.

Till 1933 there was no demand for a separate state for Muslims of India from the Muslim league or any other faction which proclaimed to be the soul representatives of Muslims of India. There in Germany Adolf Hitler becomes the ruler, in London Chuadary Rehmat Ali coins the name “PAKISTAN” and Jinnah returns to Muslim League! Till this time ML raised their voice for constitutional rights of Muslims representation. In 1939 World War 2 started which was about to destroy France in first place then all other democracies with the help of Russia. It was something obvious that the time have reached when task of making and maintaining, DIRECT, colonies would be an impossible job. But how could have they (USA and Allies) lose their grip on the world affairs so easily for which they have always dreamed of from the time of crusades (11^th t0 13^th century). In 1940 the Lahore resolution was adopted in which a formal demand for the creation of Pakistan was placed, which was thought to be the only solution of the Hindu Muslim dogma!

“Two Nation Theory”

“Muslim and Hindus aren’t only two different people with different religions but Islam and Hinduism, two different systems, laid for them the basis of a nation. So they can’t live with peace in one country that’s why a separate state shall be created for the Muslims of India which should comprise of all those territories where Muslims are in majority.  In such a state they will be having all political rights and religious freedom.”

Two nation theory aimed at acquiring political rights for the people residing in the territory which is known as Pakistan, today, who they were Muslims! It never aimed for the establishment of an Islamic theocratic state OR a Fort of Islam! Today whatever problems Pakistan is facing are just because of this disbelief that Pakistan was created for Islam and this is the reason that Pakistan today is nothing more than a satellite state.

And with all the struggle and hard work of Muslim League and Hindu Maha Saba type factions the Lahore resolution was realized in the year 1947. And guess what? The second ideological state Israel got birth the very next year, 1948. Both India and Pakistan were blessed with Kashmir dispute (UN resolution # 47 in the cold storage of secretariat). Now being a Muslim and impartial observer it’s my conviction that the current political game which is played under the banner of terrorism and global peace, which is only destroying the Muslim countries and have not affected the non-believers; Russia, USA,UK,Germany,France,China,Japan, India and others. So are they really Muslims? Islamist terrorists? Or just the oil and other resources are being taken away? Think a bit and stop believing in the controlled media! If there was no Kashmir and Israel-Palestine dispute, this war against terror would have been a dream ONLY! Aren’t they smart players of the game? Or we are Idiots? Of course both are realities.

What kind of rights the Muslim league was talking about? Why didn’t such a visionary political party survived after the creation of Pakistan? Where that justice is which wasn’t possible in undivided India? Why there are only Pathans, Baloch’s, Sindis, Punjubis, hazaras , Shias , Sunnis etc instead of Muslim and a Pakistani nation? How the economy got monopolized by twenty two families? And last but not the least, how the seed of separation got flourished in the Eastern wing (Bangladesh), How a state which creation was the result of a political struggle went into the hands of ARMY soon after its independence? Many such questions can be raised which challenges the credibility of the two nation theory and its champions.

What India and Pakistan should do now?

Talking about parity between India and Pakistan doesn’t appeals to my rational mind, and even, thinking of winding up the 1947 tragedy will be an absurd and unrealistic idea.

If India want to achieve its global goals which it deserves, because of its size and potential, and Pakistan want to turn from a police and satellite state to a welfare and independent state then both countries should resolve all outstanding issues like Kashmir and Sir creek at once, through a Bilateral dialogue without involving any third country. Keeping in mind the kind of relationship which exists between India and Pakistan, China and Pakistan, and China and India one can say that till this situation prevails all three of them, will be the ultimate losers and the dream of Asian century will realize someday but in the shape of a nuclear war! Both countries should put an end to the proxy wars which they are conducting in each other’s territory. Western countries always seek for warm relations with their instant neighbor’s and we look toward the visits of their Premier to our homeland which will for sure offend our neighbors (enemies!!)? Kashmir should be declared as semi-autonomous region under the joint control of India and Pakistan, which would be a diplomatic blow on the face of all conspirators. And the hardliners on both sides of the border shall be treated with an iron hand.

Last but not the least, neither China can be sidelined nor can India become the regional power even if there is peace between India and Pakistan. So instead of single country supremacy in the region the supremacy of the region over the west should be our aim by forming Asian Union (By keeping in mind the race for supremacy between European countries and its result which was addressed, wisely, by forming European Union.)

Conclusion!

Instead of becoming part of the game why shouldn’t we take control of the game from them?

" Either you convince me or get convinced,if you like none then it is revealed that you are a superman and i'm an idiot "
SLS (shahan liaqat sayyed)

i was a born angel thats you who made me this"

              “ Love Them If You Love Yourself”

I still remember when my baba would take me with him to the court, by that time i was just ten years of age! The judge, sitting on his extended chair inside the courtroom, seemed to me one of the freakiest person of the world because the person who at times would allow me to sit on his back and stomach and sometime would lock me inside a room along my staunch enemies (books), eeee how cruel he was !!! Remained so polite and calm while arguing his case that even he would not say anything to me if I arose from my place without his permission. Anyhow now I’m 24 and Liaqat (Baba) is near to score 60, I’m tall young with black hair and of liaqat’s are lil black, lil grey and mostly white!! now  I can , even , compete with him in  the field of law ,of which he got 30 years’ experience, because I have learned from Sir Faisal Shehzad ,PPC, up to section 300(culpable homicide) , from sir Misal Zada , law of inheritance and marriage, and from madam Rafia Naz the entire constitutional history of Pakistan!!! I won’t ask you for believing me because you don’t have any other option than to believe, luckily, that I use to annoy Liaqat by telling him that “baba, I love you a lot exactly the way I use to when I was only ten years of age, and I have realized now that you are my only living hope and strength, may you live a very long life” .BUT!! There is a huge difference between mine and his approach towards life, how? He always warns me that “shahan, change your perception about life or else none of your dream shall materialize” yeah, I do dream a lot!!

Dear readers, most of children got the same story to narrate, may be my grandfather, PIR Akbar Shah, would have said, exactly, the same words to Liaqat, when he was 24. Anyhow, I’m really thankful to all my well-wishers who criticize me, whether they are my colleagues, friends, TARIQ (my roommate) or my dearest BABA, because I believe that their criticism of mine is the reflection of their love and care for me, to be very honest at first instance such criticism irritates me in fact my ears bleeds but later it brings smile on my face when I’m asleep and dreaming! It’s a blessing to have such people in our lives, who make us to think and rethink about our lives. So don’t ignore them because ignorance is never a blessing and is an impossible assumption.

Okay now let’s come to the point , after I had made my childhood enemy ( books) one of my dearest friend, I was forced by my awaken conscience to observe the society and its elements( humans ).i got curious to discover about the basic cause behind the panic and distress sensed by the elements of society ,which is an unfortunate reality. For this purpose I asked myself various questions (socraties irony) of which the most glaring was that “how come the child of Adam and Eve finds himself alone when all-around him can be seen exactly the same kind of creature like him? Is he blind? If not by eyes, definitely he is by mind!

All parents want their children to be different, successful and ahead of everyone in the RACE of life. they teach their children about other humans , with whom they have to compete for bread and butter , in such words “human of today is selfish and cruel , who always seeks for his own interest in others, so be aware of them and maintain reasonable distance with them , and yeah never get emotionally attached to them as  they don’t have any such interest in you, so always think about yourself and ofyour bright future for which if you have to infringe someone’s rights, don’t hesitate because that’s THE reality and the only solution. If such remained your approach then your success is obvious, “. Surprisingly, parents, along such lectures, heirs a MULLAH for imparting religious education to their children. WHAT A CONTRADICTORY EDUCATION REGARDING HUMANS!!!! And finally, parents presume themselves relieved of their obligation towards their children, and start hoping for the best outcome.

With the passage of time such an educated child turns into a realistic and an acceptable element of the society. And soon his parents are satisfied seeing their once small kid a successful part of THE SYSTEM, and he along his parents enjoys almost all kinds of worldly luxuries. Bank balance! Success! Fame! Wife and children!!! Ahaan, great,,, what else one desires for? Nothing,,, really?

Now when the obedient child of his parents have turned 50, he  start feeling loneliness and for him life becomes  just an unnecessary liability ,as he had already participated and won the  competition. He now doesn’t see any person, among those thousands around him, with whom he can share his emotions and feelings, whom he can call a friend… after all they are selfish and cruel!!! And now in some cases his own children are no more the source of strength and joy for him, as they are also the same selfish and cruel creature.

Aab tu AA JAa, aab tu mehfil men bhi halwat e hogaen! although his company with whom he share his thoughts and lunch mainly comprises of top Government officials , politicians and INTELLECTS,,, and the young ones are desperate to know about his experience of life so that they may also become successful LIKE HIM, some day, And he very HONESTLY? Shares his experience with them that how he achieved success in life but never tell them how he forgot living life and how desperate he is now to be once again that street boy, who didn’t had enough pocket money but would sleep for the whole day without the help of medicines!

Now with respect I would like to ask those who criticize me for my STUPID and HOPELESS nature that although they are breathing but are they alive? Doesn’t they feel lonely in this society for becoming, a USEFUL and OPERATIVE part, for which they have almost killed the innocent human inside them? If yes, then why? Maybe because each of them alone is the righteous and the only creature of his kind and all others like him are shrewd, cruel, and selfish with whom he was bound by necessity of his dreams to do “TIMEPASS”! Only he feels the pain when physically and emotionally tortured. Only he got the permit of tears! Which he sheds at midnight before he falls asleep because of that creature which he finds in abundance around him ; and the next morning he open his eyes with deep rooted suspicion in it and his heart and mind , once again,  determined for REVENGE. And last but not the least, it’s only him who thinks and feel this way!!!!

I can just say to them that whatever and however I’m , at least, my soul and conscience is satisfied because for me each child of Adam and EVE , whether he is  muslim,hindu,Christian,jew,black,white,male female, Pakistani or other is a creature like me, and this creation of creator is neither selfish nor cruel. YES, they only seek for love and care which they deserve because of their innocent and week BEING! They commit mistake, exactly the way I commit, for which I’m sure they would curse themselves when the real education is provided to them, which is their right and duty of every single educated person. But during his days of ignorance he won’t feel guilty for his any act which hurts someone’s emotions or rights, and during this phase of ignorance the hatred for his act should not subjugate the love for human inside him.

By maintaining such an approach towards the creature around you, you may not be that successful which you have dreamed of but I can assure you that you will never fall victim of loneliness when the COMPETITION is over. And after you are no more in this world, because of migration to THAT world, no book might be written on you but still many would remember you in their prayers and will narrate your stories to generations to follow. This is real success! So. Love them if you love yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Same Actors,Same Ambitions But With A Different          Script For Same Fools”

No matter what’s the situation but be yourself, so that one may write about yourself (SLS)

A few days ago an event was organized in ISLAMIA COLLEGE PESHAWAR, was it just an event or some kind of launching ceremony! Only God and the organizers can answer. AGHAZ-E-JUNOON!!! The moment a child is born his very first cry symbolizes an AGHAZ and the JUNOON develops with the decrease in number of his days in this world.

Well, the event was titled as “AGHAZ-E-JUNOON” and took place in the Rose Ceppal hall, ICP. Inside the room, where this Aghaaz got birth, many other names were noticeable and the most glaring was PKYO. PKYWO (Pak Khyber Youth Welfare Organization) isn’t PKYO in its literal sense but is an event organizing COMPANY, “dream of dollar, for sure some rupee will arrive”!!! Why the owners of PKYWO don’t name it EOC (Event organizing Company), which actually sounds real……

The event lasted for three consecutive days and the visible theme was to promote leadership qualities, educating on first aid and to make one realize his worth, which unfortunately his education and family couldn’t succeed in!! And believe me, the tea and lunch which was served was awesome, and was the best part of it. Will someone ,please, answer my simple question that by telling a crow that you are an eagle (Shaheen) then the crow becomes a SHAHEEN????                                                                      Many speakers lectured on this point, but I unfortunately couldn’t get my answer, can someone amongst the readers answer? By the way most of the leaders manufacturers claimed to have attended such events throughout Pakistan and some foreign countries, as well. One may agree to their this claim but where is the product they have manufactured, so far? IN STORES?

On the second day an extremely interesting and reflective discussion took place. The topic was “Identity and Culture” ,it took an ugly turn when one of the  organizer- cum –participant shared  her bad experience of Pakistan in USA !! According to her “most of the people in USA doesn’t know about Pakistan, whether it’s an island or a Bermuda triangle? And, secondly, at times my friends? Would ask me if I was having a gun or AK-47 with me? “                                                                                                                      I could just wonder that how such a person got a scholarship to USA and was representing Pakistan as she even doesn’t know that Pakistan is the seventh nuclear state, second ideological country and ally of USA, since its creation, in the cold war till date. And it’s ARA (American Rifle Association) which is the biggest supplier of arms and American economy, mainly, depends upon WAR!!!!! When she narrated her sad experience one of a male participant, a good looking guy wearing shirt and jeans, snubbed her by asking her that why she visited such a country where there is no respect of Pakistan and her people. And guess what? Soon he was also snubbed   by a religious-cum- patriotic participant. He accused him of denying Islamic culture for western, by wearing shirt and jeans!!! I desperately wanted to ask my that friend that which culture he was actually advocating? The one, which denies even the basic human rights to female? Honor killing, keeping them as their slaves and so on... I think he was referring to pakhtun and other regional cultures in Pakistan, because Islam is based on humanity and is one of the most absorbing religion. Obviously we need not to get inspired of others but should have enough guts that we accept the right, good and realistic way of life! Anyhow, this gave a chance to the very knowledgeable NRA(Non Resident American) girl to continue her story that how after she had left the family, with which she resided for one year, converted from Christianity to Islam, really??

In Pakistan, unfortunately but, Islam is used and exploited by ,almost, every faction of society and government for their own self-seeking  aims and desires, whether they are the politicians , judges , social workers ,establishment , university administration, TEACHERS and ACTORS and so was the course of participants of AGHAZ-E-JUNOON.

A politician in Pakistan is thought to be justified when he lie and make false and impracticable promises ,just for curving public opinion in his favor but what will become of such a state where the students (the only hope ) OPTs for such practices? Will ever the MOB residing in Pakistan become a nation, if such are the ME!!!!plans?

Well, now I would like to wind up, and hope that this AGHAAZ will at least attempt to change ICP, by instigating the students of ICP for obtaining their rights and respect which they are entitled to. NELSON MANDELA (MADIBA) once said that “A PURSUIT TO CHEAP POPULARITY CAN NEVER TURN INTO A REVOLUTION”

THANKS A LOT FOR BEARING